http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/-t1.htm Tue, 11 Aug 2009 23:55:08 GMT 10 http://illiweb.com/fa/prosilver/site_logo.gif http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/-t1.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-m-not-sure-t243.htm Isabella I'm not sure how much longer I can do this. Everything anymore feels like a struggle, the bills, the jobs, hell even trying to see my kids. I finally happened, I knew it would sooner or later. We can't spend the weekend with my boys because they are going to my aunts house. It just feels like everything I do anymore is wrong and I just can't fix it anymore. Goddess, someone please help me before I finally go insane. Blogs Tue, 11 Aug 2009 23:55:08 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-m-not-sure-t243.htm#3205 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-m-not-sure-t243.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/happy-birthday-t219.htm Eli i s o co nfused Blogs Thu, 29 May 2008 04:38:30 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/happy-birthday-t219.htm#2991 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/happy-birthday-t219.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/just-thinking-kids-t217.htm Simi Had my first foursome last night. Kinda fucked me up. don't get me wrong, full of the awesome spoon. But would i want my simi doing something like that? I would want better, man, I really would. Mid life crisis at 19. I'm turning 20 soon, no longer a simi, but never a woman... So lost in the vastness, this complex mechanism. Down to the door! Astounding. Need to find mi lucis... I think i stuck it under the bed... maybe. So, eh, shrugging the times away catches up with you ... Blogs Mon, 26 May 2008 05:09:09 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/just-thinking-kids-t217.htm#2970 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/just-thinking-kids-t217.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/sleep-deprivation-t216.htm Simi Her hair, spun of gold and silk.. like a net to catch the morning's bursts. Ivory carved plains, flawless. i hate you, beautiful liar. the poetic justice of my words will never reach your perfect ears. jealous monster driven impure feighs. she eats at me like an undigested insect in the pit of my stomach. I love you. A few close ones know it. I dunno what to do, I don't wanna feel this way about you, but I do. It would never work. would it? ~s Blogs Sat, 24 May 2008 05:36:36 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/sleep-deprivation-t216.htm#2966 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/sleep-deprivation-t216.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/they-slip-away-t214.htm Simi Unreachable, ungrasping, oh woe is me, i can only scream into the heavens hoping someone can hear the real little kitten in the dinosaurs body. 30 seconds to self destruction and counting down, but non around to push the button only swallow it. Choke now on the spooful of sugar, the medicine out yo' ass. Like the money you blew-him for. Such a waste of a pretty pair of lips. melodic? no- trash. Shades of earth bare my alive. Fully so, as she sang it love can be so boring. but ... Blogs Thu, 22 May 2008 19:14:51 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/they-slip-away-t214.htm#2954 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/they-slip-away-t214.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/so-imma-kick-him-in-the-face-t210.htm derekcase or I would if I could, but I can't get circumstance to manifest no matter how hard I fucking try. Dammit, man. I think it's the cowardice that gets me. Don't act like it's gonna be bad if you admit it. I'm not a douche. Fuck that. I'm not doing that again, but you don't have to be so... false, kid. I wish I could bring myself to hurt you. I really do. You have no idea how much it is killing me, this idiocy. Fuck, kid. You really can't lie to yourself, kid. You really can't blame this on my ego. ... Blogs Tue, 20 May 2008 04:36:22 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/so-imma-kick-him-in-the-face-t210.htm#2910 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/so-imma-kick-him-in-the-face-t210.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/how-it-is-son-and-daughters-t209.htm Eli Stuff's been good guys. Mage was fun, new character rocks. Bloodlines is gonna rock, next week. Went to the zoo, got like a couple hundred pcitures, several videos. Got an awesome video of the black bears. One of them was fuckin' huge. I mean seriously, black bears are not big. This guy is seriously the size that I think Speaks would be with huge size. He was huge! My laptop is busted, but it happened pretty epicly, Derek, you cunt. But I really can't even care, I'm too happy recently. Uh..............Oh! ... Blogs Mon, 19 May 2008 23:07:46 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/how-it-is-son-and-daughters-t209.htm#2904 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/how-it-is-son-and-daughters-t209.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/-t208.htm Simi Irreconcilable flickers of the tongue. She said he said she did me and we did him that he didn’t her. Fortune cookie slips, like socks on polished wood-----stock. 69, that is. Lovingly terrorizing the neighborhood trees as europhoric stumbly mc. stumblesters. We slam and thrash-yet... not so ninjah, R Kelley hid in the closet too... next to the christmas presents in trashbag black paint. "FOR THE BENEFIT OF MR. KITE THERE WILL BE A SHOW TONIGHT!" Mocking fighting loving words, ... Blogs Sat, 17 May 2008 16:12:02 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/-t208.htm#2887 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/-t208.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/happy-kids-t204.htm Eli
If only it were possible to list all the reasons. I just don't have the time needed for that ^.^



How bout you guys?? Aren't you happy?? You on the X-box? You one the computer?? How bout you right there??? Your happy too. We rock. Tell me bout it ^.^]]> Blogs Wed, 14 May 2008 17:40:55 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/happy-kids-t204.htm#2850 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/happy-kids-t204.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/argh-t197.htm Mouse For a bunch of people who hate drama, you all seem to have a whole hell of a lot of it.]]> Blogs Thu, 08 May 2008 16:18:15 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/argh-t197.htm#2783 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/argh-t197.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/my-glorious-triumph-t196.htm Simi I want a vibrator. were-puppy says: ok WARNING says: they look like fun.. WARNING says: can i put that in your butt? were-puppy says: no WARNING says: and why not? were-puppy says: b/c it's an exit only for me WARNING says: you might like it. WARNING says: just one of those tiny little ball vibrators? were-puppy says: no I know I wont were-puppy says: no WARNING says: please? were-puppy says: no, but I can put it in yours WARNING says: no you ... Blogs Wed, 07 May 2008 04:05:33 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/my-glorious-triumph-t196.htm#2776 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/my-glorious-triumph-t196.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/quote-oh-woe-is-me-unquote-t194.htm Simi
the cries of the babie misheard by the storm. thundering, recklessly.
ribbons twirling in the wind, telling the story of a ballerina,
ignoring the newspapers tango.
scummy taste, lips licked knowingly.
burning end to a cherry stem, tied in a knot
''i want nothing more''
than to fuck you

~s]]> Blogs Tue, 06 May 2008 08:17:42 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/quote-oh-woe-is-me-unquote-t194.htm#2769 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/quote-oh-woe-is-me-unquote-t194.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/why-t195.htm Isabella Why must you add complications and insult to injury? We took you into our family and welcomd you with open arms, glad that my brother had found someone to love. We waited with baited breath at your bedside when you brought a bundle of beauty into the world and our lives. But since then you have done nothing but wine, complain and make our lives hell. Only a truly bitter person would be jealous because my boys are being raised by their grandparents when seperated from their mother, would you rather ... Blogs Tue, 06 May 2008 18:49:13 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/why-t195.htm#2773 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/why-t195.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/ehhemmm-t181.htm Simi Heh, here are a few fuck yous that i need to get out in order to make myself feel warm and fuzzy inside again. So if you don't wanna hear bitching, just don't read it, because after this i'm done caring about it. FUCK YOU, YOU STUPID LITTLE BOY, YOU HIDE UNDER THE HARD OUTER SHELL AND TRY TO APPEAR SO GODDAMNED UNREACHABLE AND YOU GOT MOST PEOPLE FOOLED, BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? NOT ME, I THINK YOUR PATHETIC AND SAD, I PITY YOU. I FUCKING PITY YOU. GOD AND THEN ANY TIME SHE'S AROUND THE WAY ... Blogs Tue, 22 Apr 2008 05:51:21 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/ehhemmm-t181.htm#2441 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/ehhemmm-t181.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/you-reep-what-you-sew-t192.htm Simi keep holding on kid, you know that feeling when you wake up, and you want to call out for someone but noones there? I'm there. I care, keep on truckin, kid. Seriously, dont let this eat at you. Like even though we all don't really know what to do or say, its not because we dont care, its because we care enough to not want to say something sutpid or shit, we care how you feel, but you know, sometimes people gotta do shit on their own, and you can do this, we all know you can, you can pull ... Blogs Mon, 05 May 2008 21:11:41 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/you-reep-what-you-sew-t192.htm#2750 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/you-reep-what-you-sew-t192.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/omce-i-hold-on-i-won-t-let-go-til-it-bleeds-t182.htm Simi i'm sorry, holly. i'm sorry i lost you along the way. i should have listened to you, but i didn't and now, look where i am, but i can be ever so grateful i found you again, self. I've done this dance before, i can tango it again, i can, but you know, it sucks a bit. it does, dammit. i am glad to have found myself again, how did i ever even fell? it was too much emotion, i should have sploded, now i can be loving and just carefree and happy again, just push it to the side like i usta, and ... Blogs Wed, 23 Apr 2008 08:04:29 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/omce-i-hold-on-i-won-t-let-go-til-it-bleeds-t182.htm#2461 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/omce-i-hold-on-i-won-t-let-go-til-it-bleeds-t182.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/mage-t177.htm Simi *bounces feverishly*
omg
Mage was FUCKING AAAAWWWWWWWWEEEEESSSOOOMMMMM!!!!!
i getta bone annnnn angel!!!!
oh fuck yeah!]]> Blogs Sun, 20 Apr 2008 07:30:53 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/mage-t177.htm#2389 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/mage-t177.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/so-uh-yeah-t176.htm Simi i want a family.]]> Blogs Thu, 17 Apr 2008 04:24:51 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/so-uh-yeah-t176.htm#2373 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/so-uh-yeah-t176.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-am-so-lonely-t175.htm Simi
You are the one to abuse
Oh i know it's over done.
burnt and crispy
like fresh autumn leaves
smash the seeds between the toes
conformist
snuffing out the changes, splash gold back on my green
fucker
all i wanted is fresh, and breezy and you take that away too!]]> Blogs Thu, 17 Apr 2008 02:52:51 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-am-so-lonely-t175.htm#2372 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-am-so-lonely-t175.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/alright-then-t164.htm derekcase this is to you, kids You're a dick, but so far you've been pretty cool to hang out with. I think I'd like to keep you, though the German gets on my nerves. I wish you were a little less lazy and a little less of a pansy, so I could be closer friends with you, but hey you can't have everything. I've got other people for those kinds of things anyway. Bitch, stop it. Seriously, you need to stop putting yourself out there. You really do. I care... just a little bit about how you feel, but ... Blogs Fri, 11 Apr 2008 02:30:37 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/alright-then-t164.htm#2304 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/alright-then-t164.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/love-me-t172.htm Simi It's the facade of a dance, not truly left feet just a slight stumbling, but be so-- like blurs in the rabble youre mockery and faces of white teeth smile and cut out eyes she told me it--- wait french onion whispers of the apologetic kind she smiles he smiled, we all get behind to recieve out the paper. to walk that straight line, cattle, serotonin explosion of what she calls home, now never to be told the sparrow caught her sugar pill. "you just don't get it!" she ... Blogs Mon, 14 Apr 2008 01:57:29 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/love-me-t172.htm#2336 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/love-me-t172.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/good-sir-t171.htm Simi could you kindly point me down the direction that you are not headed? See, I've got this path to walk down, and I'd rather thinka i would do it alone. I got to fight my monsters and face the nightly demons alone, but not opposite. I don't want to know where you came from, and when I am down walking, I thought maybe we could meet back around somewhere about ohhhh.... I don't know, a couple of adventures later?-shakes head- No you are right. I wouldn't be able to. I am a wanderer... Thank ... Blogs Mon, 14 Apr 2008 01:36:03 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/good-sir-t171.htm#2335 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/good-sir-t171.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/hahaaaahaa-t168.htm Simi *gasp* Sitting and soaking in the words of others when the sea of rabble means??? nothing. empty. bottomless. void. sickening really, when you come to terms with it. How much shelter is sought from the raging storm we call humanity? how many times do we double take in the mirror to check and see? fill the hollow with someone else who is empty, i am full. Derek, keep these judgements you find so easily. It makes me Always convinced and full of conviction. I adore the pointless ... Blogs Sat, 12 Apr 2008 05:44:42 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/hahaaaahaa-t168.htm#2325 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/hahaaaahaa-t168.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/hurt-t162.htm Isabella You don’t count..... I don’t care what you want........ You can’t do anything right can you.... Words I hear everyday of my life, whether a joke or not to you they still cut me to the core and you don’t even give a shit. I’ve spent my entire life being told that I am worthless and nothing, I guess thats why I let people walk all over me now. Its what I’ve been trained to do. I’ve always been the black sheep, the one who fucks up everything she touches. Her life, her marriage, even her kids. ... Blogs Thu, 10 Apr 2008 06:36:46 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/hurt-t162.htm#2296 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/hurt-t162.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-loooooooove-you-t159.htm Simi but we can't be together right now. but i loooovvvveee you. im dancing around the house in my underwear singing to myself. because i fuckings love yous! -bigstupidsmile- i wanna touch you, smell you, god your stupid. -biggersmile- I loves my sparrow. can i really bring myself to cage you to m- no! i got it. we can just run fly together, and all that horrible cheesy romantic crap, because i love you! let's chase the sun so that it never gets dark again, im afraid of the dark. but wait, ... Blogs Mon, 07 Apr 2008 04:04:29 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-loooooooove-you-t159.htm#2260 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-loooooooove-you-t159.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/oh-and-another-thing-t158.htm Simi um Blogs Mon, 07 Apr 2008 03:37:31 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/oh-and-another-thing-t158.htm#2259 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/oh-and-another-thing-t158.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-lied-t157.htm Simi the period key on the keyboard.
not the time of the month thing.
you sick fuck(s).
~s]]> Blogs Mon, 07 Apr 2008 03:34:07 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-lied-t157.htm#2258 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-lied-t157.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/well-t154.htm Simi love you.
~s]]> Blogs Sat, 05 Apr 2008 09:55:42 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/well-t154.htm#2245 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/well-t154.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/what-do-i-do-t153.htm Isabella So I got offered a full time postion at work today, full time benifits, eight hours a week more and it will open up a lot of opertunities for me not to mention seniority. At first I jumped at the chance but then I got to thinking about it and I told my boss that I wasn’t sure. Like everything it has its downsides. The position they offered me has a lot of early outs so I’d probably end up losing hours instead of gaining them, plus I would no longer be making tips so I’d end up losing money. But ... Blogs Fri, 04 Apr 2008 15:47:24 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/what-do-i-do-t153.htm#2239 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/what-do-i-do-t153.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-recommend-getting-your-heart-trampled-on-to-anyone-t151.htm Simi I love this. I love you, but i need to go for a walk now. So just remember what martyrs me while I'm away. I'm sorry, you need me? You should have shown me that..... instead of vulgar contentment and nothing more, constant snatching in the dance between me and you. take take take. chicken pecking the ground grab grab grab taste the blood. i can give no more. I'm a puppette whose strings have been yanked so tight to dance for you, I'm sorry, I can't move as fast or how you want ... Blogs Thu, 03 Apr 2008 18:01:49 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-recommend-getting-your-heart-trampled-on-to-anyone-t151.htm#2226 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-recommend-getting-your-heart-trampled-on-to-anyone-t151.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/new-job-t150.htm Eli Fuckin love it. Oh god. Easy work, good people great manager. Great overtime rules (every hour past 8 for an 8 hour day, instead of every hour past 40 for a week), good union. I took a 45 minute break tonight, watched television, my manager was asleep beside me. I got a lot of work done though, one of the ladies was shocked that I was able to do so much, so fast only on my third day. So I was happy. My manager walked in on me right after I got there, talking on the phone ... Blogs Thu, 03 Apr 2008 10:56:12 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/new-job-t150.htm#2219 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/new-job-t150.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/so-you-sailed-away-t148.htm Simi I've slipped back into my wolf's skin, the one who is unreachable and unhurt. I'm better this way, but distant, sorry if you miss the stupidity, it might still be there but not nearly as much, but hey. I found my peace tonight, my quiet solace. And kyle can suck my balls btw between stealing my boyfriend (lmfao) and stealing my in game boyfriends name to confuse the hell out of me. (too many sam's ohhh god) haha! ANYWAYYYS, I have a new object of fixation. And she is pretty. But ... Blogs Thu, 03 Apr 2008 08:13:36 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/so-you-sailed-away-t148.htm#2212 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/so-you-sailed-away-t148.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/my-place-t142.htm Isabella Everyone has their place in a group of friends and I can't help but wonder what mine truelly is. Yes I'm being emo today but everyone is allowed their emo days. Derek has a plethra of people who dislike him but he's a good guy and a lot of fun to hang out with. I think the majority of the people who hate him are honestly just jealous. And we have Liz aka Mouse, and man everyone loves Mouse because she's just that awesome. Holly is kinda crazy but we all love her, when your upset I swear that ... Blogs Tue, 01 Apr 2008 18:19:24 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/my-place-t142.htm#2172 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/my-place-t142.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-think-i-have-a-new-respect-for-tarot-t140.htm Eli So. That tarot reading the other day. Might as tell about it, since creepy enough, all of it came true. Since i sn't one of those, you willed it to happen things, since I really didn't. I couldn't effect the outcome. But here, an explaination. First question was, a general non-question about the sittuation I was in............yea, that one. First question. Ignoring the truth and being drastically disappointed by it. Sounds like something I'd do The second was, me ... Blogs Tue, 01 Apr 2008 06:09:15 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-think-i-have-a-new-respect-for-tarot-t140.htm#2168 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-think-i-have-a-new-respect-for-tarot-t140.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/525600-minutes-t137.htm Eli I've got questions. Questions that very certainly have confusing answers. Questions that I really can't ask. I have thoughts that I need to think, but don't really want to. I have a lot that I take for granted. But right now I'm taking nothing for granted. I'm loving what I have. But is that I good thing I ask? What exactly do I have? That may or may not be one of my many questions. A few people could answer. If I ask. If they'd answer, once I asked. If I asked. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- A ... Blogs Fri, 28 Mar 2008 14:39:28 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/525600-minutes-t137.htm#2150 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/525600-minutes-t137.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/a-happy-blog-fuck-the-what-i-m-not-trying-hard-enough-i-guess-t135.htm Eli So, I have the job I've been fighting for for months. I'm working third shift stock at Meijers. A very physical and solitary job. I think I'll like it. So far everything worked great, I have every Saturday off, plus either friday or sunday, since they said they usually give consecutive days off. I'll prolly only be working 32 hours a week, which is fine for me. My sleep schedule will now be: Sleep from like 6 or 7 Am to 3 or 4 Pm, then awake all day. Work at night. That's my goal at least, ... Blogs Thu, 27 Mar 2008 21:50:59 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/a-happy-blog-fuck-the-what-i-m-not-trying-hard-enough-i-guess-t135.htm#2135 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/a-happy-blog-fuck-the-what-i-m-not-trying-hard-enough-i-guess-t135.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/what-happens-at-a-con-t134.htm Simi Stays at a con. So that is why you were so adamant about me going. You didn't think you would stay faithful if i wasn't around. Why in the hell are you the one who harps on cheating, yet you doubt yourself? I'm so sick of this, I am so sick of everybody, I am on the verge of just fucking leaving, just fucking packing my shit and going... It's right there, and i don't know if i am going to or not... but i'm sick of all of this, your bullshit and his bullshit and her bullshit. It's enough. Fuck ... Blogs Thu, 27 Mar 2008 11:46:54 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/what-happens-at-a-con-t134.htm#2128 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/what-happens-at-a-con-t134.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/broken-hearted-t133.htm Isabella How does your heart get ripped out by someone you thought you had stopped loving, someone you thought could no longer hurt you? I'm curoius cause it happened to me today. My husband called me which in itself is unusual, anyways he wanted to try and get our debts worked out that we had acquired over the years. Though curiuos I didn't ask why but he told me anyways, he wants the divorce now. I knew it was coming and god knows I've had plenty of time to prepare for it, hell I should have done it ... Blogs Thu, 27 Mar 2008 06:08:33 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/broken-hearted-t133.htm#2125 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/broken-hearted-t133.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/what-the-fuck-t131.htm derekcase How could you lie like that? What is the truth? Blogs Thu, 27 Mar 2008 01:16:55 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/what-the-fuck-t131.htm#2097 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/what-the-fuck-t131.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/you-remind-me-of-the-babe-t120.htm Simi I saw you today for the first time in an eternity. See i told him i didnt want to get attached to you, and he told me to, and see? This is what happened. Im left with it eating at me, I will hardly ever see you again, today was just a chance, and when i walked away from you, i couldnt swallow down the tears, it was that overwhelming. I miss you, baby, i do. And i think about you, alot, i promise.. I miss you, and i can't wait to see your future, ugh. i miss you kid sleep sweet tonight... Blogs Fri, 21 Mar 2008 08:02:35 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/you-remind-me-of-the-babe-t120.htm#1902 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/you-remind-me-of-the-babe-t120.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/wanted-cute-nerdy-gamer-girl-apply-within-t119.htm Eli So I was told I needed a cute nerdy gamer girl. It's true, I want one. I need company, I'm lonely. I dwell to much on shit, and I care too much. I have two choices, but neither seem possible. That itself brings me down. Asked someone that I used to work with for her phone number today. She had a boyfriend. I got brought down. My life goes on, but it just bothers me. I want things. Can I have them? Please let me have them? What could it hurt? Blogs Fri, 21 Mar 2008 04:32:45 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/wanted-cute-nerdy-gamer-girl-apply-within-t119.htm#1897 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/wanted-cute-nerdy-gamer-girl-apply-within-t119.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-remember-the-day-wehn-you-told-me-it-s-over-t118.htm Simi Whisper now, I am the only one in breath’s line. Sing the dawn in, quicker now for the sun is burning out. Soon it shall be nothing but a dance in the moonlight. The lightening bugs scream for us. Lifted from the ground, we breathe now of each other. It is the scent of another that burns my mouth as words get caught in my mouth, choking the channel. I remember the time when you left. The sun mourned for days upon nights upon months upon my forever. Blogs Fri, 21 Mar 2008 03:00:44 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-remember-the-day-wehn-you-told-me-it-s-over-t118.htm#1888 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-remember-the-day-wehn-you-told-me-it-s-over-t118.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/fuck-you-t111.htm Simi Its all to easy for you, isnt it?
I've had enough of you and your words and the empty look in your eyes that i want to fix, that is so unreachable and lost, and you can just fuck off, ok?]]> Blogs Tue, 18 Mar 2008 02:22:45 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/fuck-you-t111.htm#1778 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/fuck-you-t111.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/easter-egg-hunt-t104.htm Isabella So for two weeks I begged and pleaded with my parents to let me take the boys to an Easter Egg Hunt that we were having at work for employee's kids. It was at 3 o'clock and finally my parents agreed, and dude I was happy. I mean Easter isn't really my thing but still this was something for the boys. So I called my parents around 12 on my break from work and asked where at work they wanted to meet so that I could take the boys. Lo and Behold I was greeted with, "Well your Aunt will be here ... Blogs Sun, 16 Mar 2008 19:31:38 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/easter-egg-hunt-t104.htm#1673 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/easter-egg-hunt-t104.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/so-i-have-issues-seven-sins-t97.htm Eli Envy: I constantly envy others relationships, jobs, living sittuations. And I pay little attention to my own. My house is nice, I'm surrounded by friend and family. I desire other peoples jobs because they seem nicer then mine. What am I talking about? My jobs rock, I worked at Actors Theatre, and the whole month I read and played video games. That's, and got paid damn good for it. At the watch company I did the same thing. I love my theatre jobs, they are so laid back, they are what I love. ... Blogs Thu, 13 Mar 2008 16:11:59 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/so-i-have-issues-seven-sins-t97.htm#1609 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/so-i-have-issues-seven-sins-t97.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-feel-funny-t92.htm Simi I do love you, really i do. I may not always, but I will always remember you, is that comforting? I'm sorry you can't see me, I am good for you. But stay up there, on your pedestal and unreachable. Youre more beautiful up there anyway..]]> Blogs Wed, 12 Mar 2008 06:56:53 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-feel-funny-t92.htm#1455 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-feel-funny-t92.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-just-thought-i-d-let-you-know-t85.htm Simi Its not what you want for me, its what i can reach search for stars, but find the star fish on the beach you stand an build yourself again and over. but its not enough for you, just to be sober why can't you just see? its never going to end, nothing ever ends that is why there are no happy endings. you look so empty little one and it might take some time to patch my up inside but i know at the end of the day i will not sleep tonight again and again you were always right werent ... Blogs Tue, 11 Mar 2008 05:18:27 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-just-thought-i-d-let-you-know-t85.htm#1271 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-just-thought-i-d-let-you-know-t85.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/there-10-damn-letters-t72.htm Eli FUCK!!!!!!!! I"M tired!!!! I'm done!!! I'm fucking sick of this damn shit. Fuck! Pontius Pilotus fragtet Jesus von Nazareth. "Bist du warhaftig Gottes Sohn?" Und Jesus antwortete, "Du sagst es." You said it. Not me. You create this shit and never listen to me when I have something. You ignore what I do, and demand for double. How the fuck do you expect me to keep up with you? I sacrifice for you, all the damn time. Fuck I'd be asleep now if it weren't ... Blogs Sun, 09 Mar 2008 04:16:00 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/there-10-damn-letters-t72.htm#992 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/there-10-damn-letters-t72.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/susse-sunde-kuss-mich-teil-zwei-t68.htm Eli Süsse Sünde. Du fickest mich über schon. Was, 1 woch? Es das alles ich glaube? Kommst an Hase. Gibst mir ein verdammt Gelegenheit. Wie wird es verlezten? Was die fick ist dein Problem! Ein Gelegenheit, ein Schuss. Das ist alles ich frage. Wie dich antwortest? Du nicht. Nicht ein worte. Nein, du gehst die Teufel. Du kommst zu mir, und du für mich fragen. Und fünf verdammt Stunden später. Du sagst mir das dich die Tuefel wählen. Warum ich kümmere? Ich hasse wo mich sein. ... Blogs Sat, 08 Mar 2008 14:14:47 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/susse-sunde-kuss-mich-teil-zwei-t68.htm#870 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/susse-sunde-kuss-mich-teil-zwei-t68.htm http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-miss-you-kid-t63.htm Simi Not you, but you know, the one i used to drive an hour and a half just to hold for four hours, and then drive another hour and a half. the one that would look at me and smile. just smile. The one that when he held me, everything felt right in the world, he never expected anything from me, and laughed with me for nothing. I miss that, He held me, just to hold me. He looked at me, and actually looked. He would text me, and call me randomly, and listen to my idiocy. He spoke of nothing, ... Blogs Sat, 08 Mar 2008 10:59:09 GMT http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-miss-you-kid-t63.htm#834 http://darknights.darkbb.com/blogs-f9/i-miss-you-kid-t63.htm